I didn’t pass the bar, which means I have to take it again in Feb. Not really looking forward to that but I’ll def handle round two.
I also haven’t found a job yet, which is a bit disheartening. I went to school to have a job in the legal field and I’m back working at the mall… part time. So I can’t even afford to move into my own place right now.
Not that where I’m at is bad. I’m actually really blessed right now. My family is letting me figure stuff out slowly and it really helps to know that they’re not in a hurry to have me move out.
So in the mean time… I’ve been playing housewife. Its not as boring as I always thought it would be. Its actually really time consuming. I drop of the youngest at school in the morning, clean the house, go grocery shopping, and make dinner. It keeps me busy and I get a chance to be useful instead of just sitting in my room all day.
The kids tend to like my cooking and I like looking up new recipes. They like my baking too.
I’ve also been crafting like a motherfucker. I taught myself how to crochet and I’ve taken up knitting again. So that keeps me occupied. I’ve also been drawing a lot which is really easy to get lost in.
But I can’t just do that all day everyday… I really have to get out and have some adventures or something. I’ve also go to find a real job… preferably in the legal field, but it seems like that’s not happening right now.
Its still really reassuring that I can do whatever I want. So I tend to spend most of the day doing crafty things.
I’ve been thinking about signing up with a temp agency and doing some volunteer work… I need to meet more people and get out of the house.
For several decades, private agencies, including the International Planned Parenthood Federation, and the Puerto Rican government, with the support of federal funds, waged a crusade to sterilize Puerto Rican women. Women on the island were encouraged to agree to “la operación” by armies of public health workers who offered it at minimal or no cost.
The island-wide sterilization campaign was so successful that by 1968 more than one-third of the women of childbearing age in Puerto Rico had been sterilized, the highest percentage in the world at that time.
A similar effort on Indian reservations during the 1970s left more than 25 percent of Native American women infertile. In four Indian Health Service hospitals alone, doctors performed more than 3,000 sterilizations without adequate consent between 1973 and 1976. For small Indian tribes, this policy was literally genocidal. One physician reported that “[a]ll the pureblood women of the Kaw tribe of Oklahoma have now been sterilized. At the end of the generation the tribe will cease to exist.”
“The trouble is that, for women, being “nice” often translates into putting up with things we should never put up with. How many times has some creep sat uncomfortably close to me on the bus and stared me down, yet I’m too afraid to just get up and move, lest I offend him?
We smile when we’re harassed on the street or hit on by jerks. We laugh at sexist jokes. We learn that when we have strong opinions, we’ll be called bitches and that if we get angry, we’ll be called hysterical. When we say what we want, we’re called pushy or aggressive.
I am a modern Lakota winyan. No accent. No paint. No feathers. I’m like no Indian you’ve ever seen. Because I am not a mascot. Or a blockbuster archetype.
Someone dressed like a gothic taxidermist is trying to sell me my own culture. “Your values and beliefs are for sale!” he proclaims in redface. “So is your land. I’ll buy it for you [if you see my movie].” Good trade? Spending $5 million on land worth $14,000 to sell a movie made for $250 million. I’m no good at math. But that seems excessive. Over the top. Not enough…#greatwhitesaviorcomplex.
When Racism knocks on your door, it’ll be riding a pinto, wearing a bird, and wrapped in a Comanche flag.
…Why put $5 million into the pockets of a greedy old white man? Why not give the $5 million directly to the tribe? Why not consult with the people you’re hoping to impact before rushing out and doing what YOU think is best for them? Who knows what’s best, anyway?
And that’s what this is really all about. Natives don’t have control. Of anything…How much we need. What we can have. Where we can have it. Our images are not our own. They belong to those with money. And I want to scream, “THESE IMAGES YOU CREATE HURT ME!” You may not know it, but they hurt you, too.
Ours is a Halloween heritage. A logo legacy. Slot machine sovereignty. Tonto traditions. Ancestry for the price of admission.
Feminists should support indigenous people’s rights in the U.S.
Here’s why feminists should care about this: it’s a racist case designed to gut federal Indian law. It’s a “states rights” case, which should haunt anyone who thinks slavery was a bad thing. It involves a high-profile cast of right-wing actors, from an evangelical Christian adoption agency to lawyer Paul Clement. Making adoption easy and giving birth parents and unwed parents few rights has been a conservative anti-abortion agenda for a long time. It’s time feminists noticed, and opposed it. When unmarried fathers are not really parents, unmarried mothers are vulnerable too, as when Newt Gingrich threatened to take the children of welfare mothers and put them in orphanages. If this case is successful, it would make it much easier for poor people to lose children, including against their will, which mostly affects mothers.
“If something burns your soul with purpose and desire, it’s your duty to be reduced to ashes by it. Any other form of existence will be yet another dull book in the library of life.”—Charles Bukowski (via thatkindofwoman)
Allen Daniel Hicks Sr., 51, was found stopped in his car on the side of Interstate 275 by a sheriff’s deputy and a Florida Highway Patrol trooper the morning of May 11, 2012. Passers-by had called 911 after they saw Hicks’ Chevy Cavalier swerving west into a guardrail, records of the incident show.
Speaking incoherently and unable to move his left arm, Hicks was arrested on a charge of obstructing a law enforcement officer when he did not respond to commands to exit his car. Just after noon, he was booked into the Orient Road Jail.
Hicks did not receive a medical screening, but was put in a cell where he lay facedown on the floor or tried to crawl using the one working side of his body. On the night of May 12, soaked in his own urine, his brain choked of blood, he was at last taken to Tampa General Hospital and diagnosed with an ischemic stroke. He slipped into a coma and died within three months.
“Some problems we share as women, some we do not. You [white women] fear your children will grow up to join the patriarchy and testify against you; we fear our children will be dragged from a car and shot down in the street, and you will turn your backs on the reasons they are dying.”— Audre Lorde, “Age, Race, Class, and Sex: Women Redefining Difference” (via sundayafternoonsocialclub)
Once convicted, black offenders receive longer sentences compared to white offenders. The U.S. Sentencing Commission stated that in the federal system black offenders receive sentences that are 10 percent longer than white offenders for the same crimes.
According to the Bureau of Justice Statistics, one in three black men can expect to go to prison in their lifetime.
A number of states have bans on people with certain convictions working in domestic health-service industries such as nursing, child care, and home health care—areas in which many poor women and women of color are disproportionately concentrated.
African Americans were twice as likely to be arrested and almost four times as likely to experience the use of force during encounters with the police.
The prison population grew by 700 percent from 1970 to 2005, a rate that is outpacing crime and population rates. The incarceration rates disproportionately impact men of color: 1 in every 15 African American men and 1 in every 36 Hispanic men are incarcerated in comparison to 1 in every 106 white men.
“This is to warn you that I am no longer held in check from fighting white supremacists by Elijah Muhammad’s separatist Black Muslim movement, and that if your present racist agitation against our people there in Alabama causes physical harm to Reverend King or any other black Americans who are only attempting to enjoy their rights as free human beings, that you and your Ku Klux Klan friends will be met with maximum physical retaliation from those of us who are not handcuffed by the disarming philosophy of nonviolence, and who believe in asserting our right of self-defense - by any means necessary.”—
That was a telegram Malcolm X sent to Rockwell, the head of the American Nazi Party, after he saw a racist knock down Reverend Martin Luther King on a television news broadcast.
Read aloud during a Organization of Afro-American Unity public rally in Harlem, January 24, 1965
“Forced sterilization has always targeted people considered the least valuable in our society,” Dorothy Roberts, author of Killing the Black Body, told me in a phone interview. “In the early 20th Century, that meant white immigrants, by the mid-20th century, that meant poor women, black and Puerto Rican women, and other women of color whose bodies were not seen as fit to be protected by the state.”—
this is why i teach Dorothy Roberts’ book (Killing the Black Body) alongside Andrea Smith’s (Conquest)—these sterilizations are part of a much larger story of genocide in both African-American and Native communities. i think it’s notable that one of the physicians responsible for the unapproved sterilizations of woman inmates in California prisons told the press (in response to a question about the $147, 460 he charged for the procedures), “Over a 10-year period, that isn’t a huge amount of money…compared to what you save in welfare paying for these unwanted children – as they procreated more.” The presumption that the predominately brown & black women in California’s prison system (a) don’t want future children and are poor parents (b) are hypersexual animals incapable of utilizing more temporary birth control measures should they elect to do so (c) are going to go on and be welfare queens and ‘leeches on the government’ (rather than human beings who face discrimination in the workplace due to their race, gender, & criminal record, who also deal with inadequate childcare and rehabilitation resources) is totally dehumanizing.
i also push people to think of the term “forced sterilization” beyond the realm of strictly tubal ligation, and put this in context of histories of environmental racism. for example, in the 1970s the US Forest Service sprayed herbicides on some Native communities in Northern California, with the full knowledge that these chemicals are toxic and cause reproductive failure; when spontaneous miscarriages continued for years, Native activists tried to hold the USFS accountable and demand they stop spraying—the USFS responded by saying that the miscarriages *must* be due to widespread drug addiction, not their chemicals. the US government KNEW their actions were causing miscarriages and fertility issues in Native communities, and continued this practice for years—how is that not forced sterilization too?